I often considered myself as a humble person and so does my friends. Well, all I can say is I am a good actor. Not only I have convinced my friends of my humility but I have made myself to believe it. You see this is my pathetic description of humility, it is hiding my arrogance with smiles and “oh its nothing.” It is keeping my arrogance in my head. This kind of humility is called “false humility.” And I have to admit I have been delusional for a long time about my humility. Again it was my profound ignorance about my God which cause of all this.

In my opinion that in order to be sincerely humble one must truly believe in God. You see for a long time I thought everything I accomplished was all based in my effort. I did it all! I came to believe that it was my hard work that earned my accomplishments. I saw God as a cheerleader in the sidelines. Only cheering and applauding me for what I was doing. That was my mistake.

It is only now that I came to realize that whatever I have and accomplished was all given to me by God. It was not my effort that I got my clients, but the opportunity God gave me in meeting them. How can I take credit for what I have? If God did not created me I, all these material possession won’t mean anything.  What I have is something God gave to me out of is love. I did not worked for it, earned it not even deserved it. It was given unconditionally. And I CANNOT take any credit for it. Knowing that I am solely dependent to God, I know my worth. I am worthless before God. I have nothing to be proud of, except that He loves me so much that He sent His only Son Jesus Christ to save me from my sins.

This is how I see humility now. I am only a servant of God, doing what I am told. I cannot take credit for the works. It is the Master who deserves to be praised.